My relationship with God
We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness.
My relationship with God is not where I want it to be. Sometimes, when I feel I am having a hang of it, I am quickly reminded that I have a hang of nothing.
For instance, after the recent Halleluyah Challenge by Pastor Nathaniel Bassey, I figured it would be an avenue to establish a consistent prayer time, and I did. But a few weeks later, I was at ground zero again. It was around the time I got a job. I would return home, crash on the floor by 7 pm, and sleep till the next day.
P.S.: The next Hallelujah Challenge started on the 5th; please head to his YouTube channel @Nathaniel Bassey Main if you want to be part of it.
It was hurting my time with God, but I figured I would seek that out when I got the hang of the job. It’s been what? Two months later, I am still holding on to my dear life.
So, I decided to be creative; I would utilize the time I spend preparing lunch for myself to talk to God. Still, it felt weird. How can I share my cooking time with the owner of the universe? I mean, the sheer guts I had. So I stopped. Sometimes whenever I prayed at that time, it felt like what I describe as ‘eating sand’. That’s how best I can describe it. You know, when you are prepping to eat your favourite meal, and once it hits your mouth, it feels like sand? Yes, that’s the way I felt. So I stopped.
So before I go to bed at night, I would hurriedly say Psalm 23. It sums up this season of my life. I am always anxious, so he gives me rest. I am always hungry and thirsty, so he gives me food and water. I am always afraid, so he gives me courage. I didn’t know that these were signs that I was losing communication with the control tower. My altar of prayer was slowly crumbling.
So what do I do? I pray. The only way to cure prayerlessness was to pray. A little prayer is better than no prayer. I am working on having a consistent prayer time. I haven’t figured it out yet, but I will. I’ll give you feedback when I get it.
God is the greatest, and I am the most blessed.
